Yellow Magic Madness # 36 The Little Yellow House On The Corner

"Where there is love there is life."

“Where there is love there is life.” (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Tonight, my little yellow house is quiet. my dog is in her bed snuggled happily in her blankets; she looks like an angel when she is asleep. Other times she is the most difficult, stubborn, strong and crazy dog I’ve ever seen. I rescued her from the shelter, I saw her curled in a little red ball, asleep. We have had four trainers, books, gadgets, leashes, collars, any equipment you can imagine and she defies them all. Not that I would want to buy a dog from a breeder (though I am giving it serious thought for the first time) with the money we have spent we could have purchased a purebred, maybe two. This dog is wild, charming and adorable, sometimes we think she is part dingo. I love her to pieces.

My husband is already asleep, he has to get up very early on weekdays to trudge into the city to a job he really doesn’t like but at least it pays the bills. I am trying to focus on my kids coming home soon to visit; these three people are my treasures in life and there is not a day I take them for granted.

I am both a daughter and a parent. Sometimes it is hard to be in the middle, worrying both about my mom and my kids. You never know what the right thing to do is, you just try to do the best you can but sometimes it feels like a juggling act, no one is completely satisfied. We try to do the best that we can, that’s all we know how to do. I love my children so much, they ARE my world, I would do anything for them, instead of them, because of them. I not only love them but I like them as well. They are good, outstanding people, smart, kind, caring and adaptable which was never my strong suit but even I have changed. My husband and I always said I need 24 -48 hours to get used to change, and no one knows me like he does. I adore this man with whom I’ve been married for twenty-five years.

The night air is still, sky is black, I feel comforted. The air is different at night then it is during the day. My little yellow house stands underneath a vast sky of darkness. I can think more, be more peaceful, write, breathe in the evening. It’s at night when I don’t have to focus on anything else that makes me feel good, and at peace with myself. Life isn’t as complicated as I make it, I realize that at night, I need to remember that during the day.

Listening to crickets, the room is warm, I think back to old times, simpler times but I wouldn’t go back again. I love who I am today,  older, more appreciative and more at peace with myself. Grateful. I know what is important, I don’t need anything else in life.

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3 thoughts on “Yellow Magic Madness # 36 The Little Yellow House On The Corner

  1. Lovely post Laurie. I can imagine your little yellow house under the dark sky and you inside, comfortable. Your writing is really good!

    I hope your days become more comfortable, but I understand and don’t quite know how to get the same peace during the day as I have at night (unless I can’t sleep at night, then it isn’t peaceful or comfy). I can always feel the energy change around five pm. Must be that most of the country relaxes.

    With wishes of peace, and many more comfortable nights.

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  2. ugh. I will try this again…already tried to comment on this twice! Loved this blog…and can so relate and am so pleased to hear the contentment coming thru for u. Having 3 crazy dogs myself…who follow only their own rules! lol…I too like the person I am…My kids and grandkids are also my life, and I too adore my hubby! I don’t like the poor health we must deal with day to day, but even that has helped shape who we are. Dealing with illness and pain every minute of the day definitely makes us a more empathetic person. You have such a huge heart, as do I, which seems to be a limited trait in most these days.
    T

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