Good things do happen to good people but sometimes you just have to wait. I speak from experience, 2 years of physical and emotional hell, and learning old lessons in a new way. From a new outlook, and most importantly, from a new me. I’m not the person I was 5 years ago, not even 3. I’m a new person in an old body, and an older soul in the same body. I am grateful for what I do have. What I don’t have, I probably don’t really need right now; and if I do need it and I don’t have it maybe there’s a reason. I just don’t know what the reason is…….yet.
There are ALWAYS unfair twists and turns in people’s lives. I don’t have the answer to terrorists or 9/11 or a beautiful baby girl diagnosed with terminable cancer. I’ve learned, however, that we all pay a price in life, nobody goes unscathed. Of course a certain amount of self-indulgence is definitely acceptable. Why me? Why him? Why us? There just aren’t answers all the time and part of growing up is the willingness to accept horrible things and still go on. What choice do we have? We need to learn to ride the waves, the smooth rippling water and the fierce, crashing undercurrent. There is not one straw that breaks the camel’s back but many, many straws and we need to deal with them, one at a time and probably forever. It’s the way the universe works. Give to it and it will give back to you; maybe not now but sometime in the future.
No one is talking about easy. No one is talking about fun. It’s your own approach to the world that makes a difference. So, give a little of yourself, believe that good things will happen and put your energy out there. It may take a good enough amount of time but the last thing you want to do is give up. Play “The Smile Game’ when you feel the most miserable, cranky, depressed or disgusted, smile broadly (even when you don’t feel like it) go out and see what happens. I KNOW you don’t want to do it, I didn’t either but try (please). You’d be surprised. People really do react to what they see, we all do.Give a little of yourself to the world, to a child, to a charity and say hello to the universe and to the angels, smiling.
Life is short and it’s a game; sometimes it’s only a crap shoot, other times you have more control. Believe in something, anything, your G-d, your Buddha, “The Sound of Music” the smell of new cars, Ben and Jerry’s, Jimmy Choos or for me, Merrell clogs While you are on the this good earth, give of yourself, your love, your hope, your time, your gratitude, your patience. As long as you take the steps to believe in yourself and give to others, you’re more than halfway there. Welcome home.
for Roland who has helped me, even when the waves were really rough and for Doc who taught me that there were always more straws to break. I thank you.